Tonight’s yet another night where I should be completing my assignments so I can get some sleep. Instead I sit here suffering from a case of wandering mind. Its now just about 3 months until I turn 24 and just about 7 months until I complete my undergraduate degree.
While this is an exciting time in my life just thinking of what comes next in my journey, its also a scary time for the very same reason…I have no clue what comes next.
Quite often I admire other 24 year olds who’ve already started their own businesses, perhaps even started a family and my mind begins its journey into the wild. Always great watching those people who’ve followed their childhood dreams and kept focused all the days of their lives. Then there’s people like me who want to do a million and one things yet can’t decide on a single one.
I’m currently studying IT Management but do I want to become an IT Manager is a whole other question to ask. As I’ve been told your undergrad degree does not determine what you do with the rest of your life and while I do believe that I also wonder where the heck I’m supposed to start.
Some days I think about teaching again, perhaps getting a Teaching Certificate or Masters in Education. I’ve even thought about getting my Project Management Professional (PMP) certification. Other days I think of doing Early Childhood education since I do have a great love for children and other days I just want to travel and discover the rest of the world. Then there’s also my passion for photography which reappears every now and then.
The most I know is that I want to do something meaningful and enjoyable and something that makes a positive impact on the lives of others. If I have to wake up every day and build a career, I want to be happy doing so. Will I get some grand idea and start my own business? Be my own boss? A consultant? Teacher? Mentor? Who knows?
Then again I suppose I can be all of the above. The sky’s the limit right?
This is the point where all I can do is my best and trust that the rest will fall into place. Trust that I will see the great signs and pray that the doors of opportunity open.
We’re all advised to follow our dreams but what if you don’t know what they are? Or maybe you do know but deny yourself.
Now that I’ve cleared my mind, I can probably get back to finishing my assignment which still awaits. A few weeks from now I’ll probably laugh at myself for even worrying when things do work out but til’ then here ends my ramblings of a confused, yet optimistic soul.
